Ichigo's Idiotic Thoughts

Today was pretty much another confusing day for me once more...
But before i get to that,
I made a new blog!
[like a couple days ago...]
yay....?
My other two blogs were about my emo self,
Yes i HAD an emo self...
but i blocked them so u guys cant read it..
HA?
I tired to describe my day in a poetic way~....
but i cant cuz i fail like tat......
And i dont like to rush with my poems.
But anyhoo,
back to the subject!
I had many things going on in my head,
so i didnt really pay attention to any of my classes todah.
Even though I have a timed essay,
and 2 quizzes tomorrow....
............................
I was also tired,
but i was mostly thinking about the most cliche topic in the world:
LOVE.
[To all those people who are surprised by this... well..... now u know im not tat serious about school...]
I had experience a relationship before,
but im not going too deep into that.
Imma make this long story short becuz its pretty cliche...:
Got a stalker bf who i have never met before in my life,
got dumped by him,
got emo,
got better with the help of my friends,
[pretty much the meaning of my 'the seed' poem],
whoo hoo.
Does that answer your question of how i got emo?
Well if it did,
good.
If it didnt...
well screw...
I was just thinking of whats the point of saying those 'cheesy',
'pointless' lines of:
'we will be together forever',
if people keep changing their 'da one'....
And i'm not even sure if i wanna be in another relationship...
Becuz i dont wanna be treated the same way again.
Plus,
who would want to fall in love with a boring,
tomboyish,
non social,
average girl like me?
My ex did,
but in time lost interest in me.
We are friends now,
[hence the spelling in 'friENDs',
the end of loving each other in a romantic way...
actually nvm,
i suck in explaining this...]
but we dont talk a lot anymore becuz he doesnt go on aim a lot becuz he has a life.
But yea.
And like my poem 'snow',
i think im starting to like someone else now...
The person i like is my guy friend......
but im not sure if this is really love.....
wait...
Does thinking about someone 24/7 even when you were in a relationship count as love...?
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who knows...
maybe ill listen to fallin for you and fall in love right now....
but again,
i dont wanna,
or im trying not to be in a relationship again.
After i saw real couples' actions,
yea,
i cant do tat....
Actually,
you know wat...
I just want to be loved...
period.
Lastly,
its March.
the month where i can send transfer slips to other schools....
Meaning i can go to Bolsa...
or LQ....
But i dont know where..
cuz im getting used to GGHS,
and im an indecisive person.
Well i have many questions unanswered todah.....