A Nice Experience...

Well,

before I tell you what my 'nice experience' is I need to tell you something.
You know my Rubik's Cube design that I have submitted on Threadless.com?
Yea,
sadly..
It got declined...
OTZ
Well it's okay really,
because it was my first time.
The reason it was declined was because I needed to fix some stuff.
The thing is I don't know what.
So I did a critique,
where all members on threadless give the advice to one another about one's design.
And this one guy left me a comment about how my perspective on the side was wrong.
The cube pieces were suppose to be smaller as they get closer to the vanishing point.
.....
He sure has good eyes.
Thxs DudE!!! \( OwO)/
Now I'll try my best to make another version of "I'm Scrambled..." once more!
Idk when...
But I will!
And it WILL be published! (OwO)O
Heh.
I guess my fortune is true.
'You will fail in everything this year.'
Well except grades for some reason... ( o-o)..
There must be a reason why I'm failing this year,
or I have bad karma this year.
Maybe it's because of my emo incident.
How I reacted,
or how I was hiding everything from my family.
It did hurt to hide the fact that I used to have an ex from them.
But then again....
Did he really count as a boyfriend...?
Cuz we didn't do anything... ( o-o)..
Heck.
We didn't even meet! (#=3=)
Freaking at&t.....
But yea,
I don't love him anymore.
I loved him.
Again,
I realized when I accepted his 3rd confession,
it was my kindness that has accepted it,
not my heart.
But why did I cry?
Maybe it's because I was so into my dream of finally having a 'boyfriend',
that now I must end it so suddenly.
Cuz I kept thinking no guy would love a girl like me,
and that incident just confirmed it,
but yet again that's a bit cliche to even think about it...... ("=w=)...
As for my reactions,
I have no idea.
Too much stories?
Hahaha.
Well anyhoo,
back to me topic!
I actually have 2 'nice experiences' at school today...
One:
I was helping my biology teacher to get supplies for him from another class.
My friend also tagged along.
In GGHS,
each class has 2 doors at least.
So I knocked on the right door,
but no one answered.
When my friend and I were about to knock again,
a passing upperclassman said to us that the other door was open.
When I looked at the left door,
the door was closing.
So I ran to the left door and was about to open it,
when suddenly,
the door was about 5 centimeters away from my face.
With a yell and a jump,
I backed away from the door.
Everybody who saw me were laughing at me,
while the teacher on the other side of the door was surprised.
These kind of things always happen to me... ("=w=)...
And lastly,
my last experience:
Today was x-country in PE,
aka mile day.
Our mile was to run one lap on the track,
run through a gate,
run around the softball field,
through the outside basketball fields,
into the softball field,
running the perimeter of the softball field,
turn right,
around the soccer[?] field,
through a gate,
around the field,
through another gate to the track field once more,
and a half of a lap of the track field.
Pretty long?
Eh.
Not really.
I don't think it's even a full mile.
Yet again,
even I'm not sure if it is a mile...
So!
When I was had finished my first lap,
there was a go cart with the technician guy driving on the track right next to me.
So I decided to speed up a bit to the gate,
because I was in front of him.
Then I heard a yell from the technician:
"RUNRUNRUNIMMARUNOVERYOU!!!"
Again,
I yelled and ran faster towards the gate.
He was literally on my tail,
about to be true to his word.
Once I finally reached the gate,
he stopped chasing me and laughed evilly...
He's mean!! (">.<)O
Then,
when went through the other gate towards the soccer field,
I saw him again...
I ran so fast just to get away from him.
Again,
he,
including all the teachers,
were laughing at me.
Well I dont want to be run over by a go kart!! (">x<)!!
In the end of my 'mile',
once again I was the first girl,
and I surprisingly got my best time:
6:34...
Why can't something chase me in middle school...
Hmph! (#=x=)...


Failed... AGAIN!

BLEH!
I DIDN'T KEEP MY WORD ABOUT BLOGGING EVERYDAY!
SORRY!
well.
BAD BRENDA! [Looks at my mirror...]
(">x<)o [O(>x<")] But hey! The good news is that I acutally remembered what has happened during the past days!~ \(owo)/ Let's start from Sunday! On Sunday, I was too busy with my homework from English: Reading Pride and Prejudice due to my lazyness of not reading it....
I'm trying to not procrastinate this year!
But...
I don't know how well I'm doing that....
("=w=)a
Maybe a B...?
Well anyhoo..
[coughcough]
I went to a restaurant due to my mother's lazyness.
It was called Thanh Long,

[I just got strangled by my mother b/c she saw the comment about her above... owie... (">x<)....]
As.
I.
Was.
SAYing.
The restaurant was new,
so my parents wanted to try that.
Obvious from its name,
it was a Vietnamese Restaurant,
that is mostly famous from its com tam,
heard from my parents.
When we finally went into the restaurant,
the first thing I noticed was that everything was green....
[facepalm... ("=x(\) ]
The second thing I noticed was that there were tons of fountains,
like Thaitea's restaurant in RC...
[facepalm.... again... ("/)x(\) ]
Lastly, the phood was somehow small....
But it was surprisingly filling to my stomach..
( o-o)......
The phood was good though.
( =w=)b
Then on Monday,
my friends and I created our own amateur manga group!
I think we are becoming like CLAMP,
GO CLAMP!! \(OwO)/
Our group is called:
[ahem]
Scribbles.Ink.
It was pretty cool I have to admitt~
( owo)
There's still gonna be more people in the group though...
Whoas...
("=w=)a...
Then Tuesday...
I FINALLY SUBMITTED MY DESIGN ON THREADLESS.COM!!!~
\(OwO)/
Since people at my school say that they loved it,
I wanted to submit it!
If it's accepted...
Then I get about 2.5K!!!!!!!
Not sure if my Rubik's Cube design will be good...
compared to all the other pro designs...
But!
My guy friend did say: 'Simple is Best!!!!'
So...
I decided to try!
After 3-5 months...
\("owo)a...
Then Today,
It was late start today~
But it didn't really matter because I woke up pretty early...
I had 2 quizzes today,
one in Geometry,
and one in English.
Both of them were realllly easy~
(owo)v
Except I'm sad of the fact that i wasted my 30 minutes at school studying all the Thms when it wasn't even mentioned in my quiz...
and I have a B+ on my last Biology Test....
Just one more question for an A!!
GAH!!!!!!
MY GRADE IS 2% LOWER!!!!
("O_O)!!!!
MUST KEEP UP MY GRADE IN BIOLOGY!!!
HOW?
STUDYSTUDYSTUDY!!!
AND!
Stop falling asleep in class...
("=w=)

Lazy

Well,
sorry for not posting some posts for the past days.
I was just lazy,
and i had many things to do my hw,
but im not sure if that's a perfect excuse.
ahaha.
Well basically all week,
i was busy with my bio project,
and other hw.
I dont really remember what happened during the past days...
cuz i have horrible memory,
that is why i like to do daily posts.
So starting today,
ill try to do daily posts once more! ( owo)O
I remember one thing though..
and it's from yesturday..
I had another dream with my guy friend again..
Why always fridays..?!?
It was about some killer was about to kill me,
so i have to kill the killer myself,
then i went on aim [idk why...]
and then he aimed me up saying how i shouldnt do tat.
I kept saying it was okay like me usual reaction,
but he kept saying no and he was worried about me.
First of all how did he know i was facing a killer...
He was the only one to me on aim outta all of my friends,
including the triple baka + one.
But then i killed the killer with something...
and idk how...
but i remember i meet him with a mini rocket like Flick's phood machine in Cloudy with a chance of meatballs!
Hey,
i just watched that movie today with the triple baka + one!
How funny is that.
It was like i was flying~!
Well anyway,
back to my dream...
I then killed the killer in some way..
and then went back on aim [again idk why..].
Again,
he was the only one who talked to me saying how i was,
my reactions were normal,
like the killer incident never happened... ( o-o)....
Then somehow my guy friend was somehow in front of my house cuz he wanted to see me,
for some weird reason...
So I ran outside in the rain,
searched for him,
but i couldn't find him..
And that concludes the end of my dream~
So far he is the most appealing person in my dreams.
Even the triple+one dont appear in my dreams tat often....
Wonder why.
Well,
i should get going to do my eng hw and bio hw.
I also have a test on bio on monday.
And the best part about that test is that i have no idea what it is about!
.....
im doomed... OTZ

Fun yet Disturbing Day[s]

Sorry for not making a post from yesturday!
I was just too tired and it was too late when i came home from LQ's Viet Cultural Fest!
It was so awesome!
I went to the festival with Thaitea,
my mommy,
and Da wind!! \(OwO)/
She texted me in the morning that she could go.
So the whole Triple Baka were able to come to the fest!!!
The One was too busy with her FFXIII...
I think.. ("=w=)a
Well anyhoos,
when we finally arrived to LQ,
it was so exotic to me.
I think it was also exotic to Thaitea,
but to Da wind she was used to it because she has been went to LQ before for some reason.
I saw most of my old friends from middle school,
and mostly got hugged/glomped..
One of my friends,
Emily,
said my name wrong...
She called me 'Diana'......
Well i guess that's okay.
She has memory issues like me.
Then we finally went to the line to get ready to go in.
Since we didn't have any tickets,
we have to go to a separate line,
which was way shorter and less crowed then that humungo packed line.
It was pretty good,
cuz we didnt get squished by those people! ( owo)--
But!
We had to go in a bit late,
cuz we didn't have any tickets...... ("=w=)--..
But what was kind of surprising to me was that my best guy friend was also there.
He was in that humungo line.
I have no idea why i should be surprised because he freakin goes to LQ..
But when i first made eye contact with him,
my first reaction was to duck.
Just duck.
He saw Da wind and Thaitea from afar and they said hi to him.
But not me.
When our eyes linked,
he made a expression of 'is that brenda?'.
But from my point of view...
My heart ached...
Don't know why.
But it just did.
....
So after an hour of getting in the gym and settling down,
the festival finally started.
There were many interesting scenes.
The marching band,
the drumline,
their plots!
It was really good.
I also understood a bit more about my family.
My family doesn't really trust me because they really have a high overprotectiveness over me.
So i guess that's the reason,
cuz the guy said that in the plot.
But it seems reasonable. [to me]
There were also three famous singers at the festival,
but the singer who stands out the most is Trish.
Everybody was screaming out her name,
easily throwing 'I LOVE YOU' to her,
and were making lots of heart signs to her.
But the most funniest thing that ever happened that involved with her was when she was deciding which side she should sit with,
all the three sides were yelling for her to come at their side.
But,
this one smart,
genius guy ran from the audience to the stage,
sat down behind Trish,
and asked her if she wants to sit with him.
She agreed!
When she was sitting down,
many people from all the sides start to run towards the stage just to sit next to Trish.
I was laughing and shocked at the same time.
That guy is a pure genius! ( OwO)b
Some people were also able to get some free CDs from Trish,
including Lina's boyfriend.
Oh yea!
Lina's boyfriend...
when those two are together...
they just look like friends to me.. ( o-o)...
Not really a couple...
Even when Lina was laying on his shoulder,
they still look like friends... ( o-o).......
Well back to the fest scenes...
I was so shocked during this one skit of a prom.
My guy friend was in it!! ( O-O)!
And he was dancing with this random girl.
Well it's because he's one of those side characters who have a 'date',
but...
again..
my heart ached for some reason.
He was pretty stiff with is dancing though,
which was kind of funny.
pbfft~ ( =w=)
In the end though,
i wasn't able to say hi to him properly,
and i kind of regretted ducking when we first made eye contact..
I should've just be like my usual self.
Just stay still and say wave hi.
But somehow i feel different when im around him now..
....
I was able to talk to him on aim later,
saying 'good job mr dancer'.
He was shocked when i told him that i was there,
and he kept on saying,
'why didn't say hi?!',
and,
'Did you cheer for me!??!'
For his first question,
i just said i didnt want to be squished,
cuz when we say hi to each other,
we would always walk towards each other.
But when i aimed him tat,
i felt weird..
like half of me is saying thats not the reason.
And for the his other question,
i said i was,
but i think i was too soft...
We stopped talking though cuz he had a headache from talking to me in the car,
because he was on his iphone. [freakin rich mouse... (#=x=)]
Well that ended my day of yesturday.
[Freakin Da wind is smiling at when she was reading this as i was typing... (#=x=)..]


For today though,
a dream starts my day,
and it happens to be another weird dream.
It had him again!!!
And my dream was about what would happen if i didnt duck!
He would come over and talk to me a lot,
and only me.
While Da wind,
Thaitea,
and Yawnnhi[?!?!?!] left me alone,
with evil..
smiling..
curious..
expressions..... ("=x=)..?
So basically in this dream..
was like a continuous from my other dream...
the dream about him and i being a couple..
WHY IS THIS HAPPENING!?!?!?! (">x<)?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!?
Oh yea!
i also went to Thaitea's house for our Triple Baka and One hangout as usual.
It was fun.
I get to have lots of free phood as usual~
\(=w=)/
And i was able to show them my drawing of hikaren.
They agreed that she looks better in black in white......
I guess i should just color her and then copy it in a grayscale...
("=w=)a

Yatta!

Yes!!!!!
So many good things has happened today!!!
\(OwO)/
First of all,
my team in PE finally won a game on our last game!!
WOOOO!!
GO MY TEAM!! \(OwO)/
Since we all finally tried to play,
we were able to beat the other team by one point!
YES!
I was mostly jumping too!
(OwO)v
Wait..
does that really mean i am a recycle...? (=w=")v?
Well i realized that field sports is pretty fun.
I thought it wouldnt be fun because its the least favorite sport to pick in PE..
But its fun!
and i might take that next quarter again! \(OwO)/
Onwards! ====\( owo)/
I ate a strawberry shortcake after school today!!! \(OwO)/
The cake was sooo yummy!
Worth the 2 dollars~
The strawberries were very sweet~
I get to have an extra 2/3rd of a strawberry from my friend who was full.
What happened to the 1/3?
Well..
I accidentally dropped it,
but Yawnnhi caught it!
GO Yawnnhi's Relflexes!!
BUT!
She threw it on the sidewalk...
cuz she hates strawberries...
...
[sniff]
my 1/3 strawberry.... ("T~T)/
Imma have a moment of silence for that dreadful incident.
..........................................................
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OKAY!
Next one!
i was able to finish my new drawing of Mitsusora Hikaren-chan!~ \(OwO)/
I even colored her with markers,
TY Tina! ( owo)/
I drew her standing along with her weapon,
the scythe.
My drawing seems to be improving now,
i just can't tell if my proportions are right.
I think its okay,
but who knows... ("=w=)a
Next!
I am guaranteed to go to the LQ viet festival tm!!! \(OwO)/
And Thaitea is coming along with my mommy!!!
\(OwO)/
I CANT WAIT TO GO!
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\(OwO)/

I really am slow

Well..
like i said,
i really am slow... ("-owo)a
After da wind told me about that she was having a talent show at her school,
I wanted to know when mine was going to happen.
So today,
i asked my sempai who is the asb president for the sophomores,
and her reply was that the talent show happened at the beginning of the year...
..................................
Wow! ("=w=)
I kind of felt stupid after saying that....
Yet again im idiotic like that..
ahahhah..
So i asked her why our viet teacher was saying that he is going to be in the talent show.
And she repiled that he's going to be in the TEACHER talent show.
That made a lot of sense.
So i asked her again when it will happen and what time will it start.
She said that it'll start soon,
undecided yet.
But!
It will only be held during lunch...
...........
Dangnabit..
I really wanted to take da wind and thaitea to my school.
They done that to me,
so i want to return the favor!
Dont know how...
BUT ILL RETURN THEIR FAVOR!!! Q(-owo)/
Also.
I'm still deciding if i want to go to the LQ viet fest this friday or not.
Because my mom said i can only go if i have a friend who is a girl with me.
And the friends that im going to hang out over there are most likely my guy friends...
So far...
Da wind is planning to go to the talent show at her school,
Thaitea...
i doubt it..
and Yawnnhi,
she said no...
Bleh..
But then my mom said that she's thinking of going herself cuz Trish is going to be there too.
So that's okay too.
I just wanna see wat LQ is like!
That is my reason of going to LQ..
right?

Tick Tock

Well today was pretty much a slow,
busy day for me again.
Filled with lots of reading,
and lots of hw.
But school was okay.
Not much happened.
There was a little conflict in art though.
I,
or my art teacher,
or someone,
or whoever was the cause of my missing art classwork...
........
I wasn't really that sad,
i could always make another one,
becuz it was a drawing of my one point perspective 4 boxes connected to a pole.
My art teacher however felt bad,
and said i had to start over again,
and worried that i might take forever.
I wasnt even sure if i can do it fast...
but after i finished my drawing,
including the erasing and the shades,
i realized i finished it in about 5-10 minutes...
Not only did i surprised myself,
but i surprised my art teacher.
And lastly,
i was enrolling for my classes for my sophomore year.
I am going to take 7 classes,
Health, Eng 2HP, Alg2/Trig, Chemistry, Viet 2, PE, and World History HP.
I didnt want 7 classes...
cuz i didnt want a 0 period,
but i just want to deal with Health right away,
and i really want to try my best to get only 5 periods in my senior year.
Since this year i wasted a class...
Peh...
OH!
And i almost forgot!
FFXlll finally came out today!
When my brother came home,
we went straight to the game and enjoyed the holyness!
The graphics,
the story,
the voices,
the music,
the battle system,
it was just so holy!!!!!!!!!!
Well i guess thats all for today!
Now if you excuse me,
i need to do me newspaper artice for eng that is due tm....

I got tagged[?]: Uke or Seme? Seme or Uke? w/e...

Idk what 'uke' or 'seme' mean... but imma do this cuz i got tagged a long time ago. Wonder what ill get? (-owo)a?

Which ever applies to you~
30= Super Uke
21-30 = Uke
20 = Both?
10-19 = Seme
Less than 10 = Super Seme

01-[ ] You like to be content in everything. [not sure wat content means... ("-owo)...]
02-[x] When a person confesses his/her love to you and you don’t like him/her, you start feeling very tense and/or you don’t know what to say.
03-[x] You enjoy listening to smooth and relaxing music.
04-[x] You are quite hyperactive.
05-[ ] If you don’t like something, you start crying and you don’t care if you start talking too loud.
06-[x] You love candies or any type of caramel. [not candy.. but i love caramel~ (owo)v ]
07-[ ] You like making others blush. [what kind of ? is tat?! ("=x=)?!]
08-[x] You sleep with a doll/teddy bear/pillow in your hand. [MOKONA!~ \(OwO)/]
09-[x] You’re usually shy with the opposite sex. [ im only normal with my guy friends, which is way less then the whole guy population... (-owo).....]
10-[x] You like romantic-funny anime.
11-[x] Between L or Light cosplay, you prefer L. [L's cool!! \(owo)/]
12-[ ] You have listened “an café”. [ How does this relate to the uke seme thing..? ("oxo)? ]
13-[ ] You like listening to it. [....]
14-[ ] You have 1 or 2 song on your computer of “an café”. [..... more ?s about an cafe!??! ("OxO)?!]
15-[x] You are innocent and a little clumsy. [People say im innocnet.. like my viet teacher... and im clumsly... ("-owo)a....]
16-[x] You smile at kitties. [Okay.. i admit... i do.... does tat really mean im a neko..? ("=w=)..]
17-[ ] You usually say –kawaii-.
18-[x] You like plushies.
19-[ ] Between light blue and blue, you prefer light blue.
20-[ ] You hate Paris Hilton because she is an idiot. [ i think im the idiot.. ("=w=)...]
21-[x] You have been lost in a shopping center/parking/cinema. [A lot i say, A LOT. (owo)v ]
22-[x] You have called to the mistaken number twice or more.
23-[x] You cried with Pocahontas' ending. [it was beautiful!!! ("T~T)]
24-[x] You have used a very feminine dress or shirt. [yes im a girl.. of course i used to have one of those... ("owo)a...]
25-[ ] You call your pets with cute names.
26-[ ] You believe that yaoi is the best. [BOO YAOI AND YURI!! no offense yawnnhi... ("=w=)]
27-[x] You're easily to trick/convince. [nods]
28-[x] Some men scare you. [ those men killer men... ("=x=)..]
29-[ ] You have seen Pucca and you like it. [Whats Pucca? ( owo)?]
30-[ ] You have pink/red clothes and they are decorated with flowers. [....]
31-[x] Sometimes you start looking at the clouds and you get lost in space. [ nature is the best!~ (owo)v]
32-[ ] You’ve said “Kyao” or something like that before. [....?]
33-[x] When a person of your same sex gets angry with you, you’re at the defensive.
34-[x] You like J-pop. [JBF!!!~!~!~ \(OwO)/]
35-[x] You have cried for more than one movie/TV series. [im emotional like that~ (owo)v]
36-[ ] You watched Gravitation and you felt like Shuichi or you watched Strawberry Panic and you felt like Nagisa. [strawberry panic... ugh... DONT REMIND ME!!! (">x<)!!! ]
37-[x] You smile with no reason. [(owo)]
38-[ ] You usually are very positive. [ that's my goal though! must recover from that break up!! (-owo)o]
39-[x] When there’s a rainbow, you run out to see it. [over the rainbow~ (/owo)/]
40-[x] You usually don’t understand what your parents say [not at all... tats why i think i fail as a vietnamese person.... OTZ]



Total: 24/40 UKE


Hmmm... is an 'Uke' a good thing or a bad thing? ("-owo)a?

My Parents's Past

I have learned more about my family's past today,

and i mean a lot.
What made me start thinking about it more was when my Vietnamese teacher suggested us to ask my parents about their stories of how they came over here,
America.
So i asked my mom about it when she picked me up from school.
She told me many things,
things that changed my perspective on my parents,
and things that made some of my questions about them solved.
She told me how the communists took everything from everybody in the south of Vietnam,
including herself.
Before all of that happened,
my mom was rich..
She had many rice fields,
and her dad owned an ice company!
Shocking..~
And my great grandfather was the richest in the village!
Even more shocking!
But my uncles and my mom lost all of it,
because of the communists...
The communists took all of her rice fields and took over her company,
all of money and precious belongings...
That must be a heartbreaking day for every southern Vietnamese person..
Well i was glad my mom and her family were able to all escape,
otherwise who'll know what would happen if they found them.
I might never be alive here today!
On the other hand though,
my dad's past was a bit more sad..
Even before the big incident,
my dad's family was still poor.
And now the communists made him more poor!
Man!
Messed!!!
BOO COMMUNISTS!
BOOOOOOOOOOOOO!! (#=w=)O
But what made my dad's past even more sad,
was that he was the only one who could escape to America..
His other members didn't go with him,
because since he is the youngest,
they want him to have the best life.
So when he came over here,
he was alone...
Now that explains why he is so worried about my brother and I.
Because my mom,
my brother,
and I are the only ones who are family to him now.
The only ones who he can trust in this country.
And if he loses us,
he would experience that painful past again...
He had to support himself,
and had to pay for school for himself.
He had school during the beginning of his days,
and then his job at Taco Bell at the end of his days.
And he only biked from his school to his job,
and from his job to home...
Must be very tiring....
No wonder he wants us to have a good job.
He would always say:
"Work hard in school! Or you will work at Taco Bell!!'
At first i thought he was just using Taco Bell as an example,
like the first topic that came up in his head.
But no.
It's because he wants us to have a better life then him,
like how his family wanted him to have a better life.
[I just noticed,
my mom,
a rich laday,
married my dad,
a poor man.
This kind of reminds me of those typical manga/drama/stories....
pbfft ( owo)]
Now that i have learned the truth,
I will now try my best to return their love,
even though my dad's way of love is strict and hard...
Ty Mr. Robert Nguyen,
my Vietnamese teacher,
for guiding me to help me understand my family more.
[which reminds me....
every day...
he would always say:
'come on mouse!'
to his computer mouse because sometimes it didn't work.
And right when he said 'mouse' i kept thinking of my guy friend...
{facepalm}
Oi Vey..
And i might go to the Vietnamese Cultural Night at LQ this Friday,
which is an hour after my piano class,
the same school that my guy friends goes too,
and place that he will be at.
I have no idea why i want to go there...
but somehow..
something is dragging me to go to LQ......
What though....?]

Ugh...

Today was a pretty boring yet sad day for me.

All i did today was do hw,
including lots of reading.....
There was also a fight with my dad and my brother...
again...
I dont know how...
but my brother was asking my dad how to iron the shirt,
and then my dad got somehow pissed off and said that he's no longer his son...
sigh...
at times...
i want to run away from home and be by myself.
so i wouldnt have to see,
hear,
and experience that horrible experience.
and they won't see my crying.
I just wish that they can have a better relationship.....

Why?

Today was a pretty tight for me.

I had a braces appointment in the morning,
and my friends were coming ova for our usual 'Triple Baka and One' Saturdays.
I knew i should've put my appointment on a Wedsnesday...
but too late.
When i first went to my appointment,
it was crowded as usual,
and surprisingly I saw my little cousin ova there.
We were both surprised and we talked for a while.
It turned out that he just started having his braces today.
The memories...
ahaha.
I haven't talk to him in a long time,
like 6 months.
So it was a nice reunion.
We talked for about an hour....
and then he finally got in.
The sad thing was that he was there an hour earlier then me...
so he had to wait for 2 hours....
One hour for waiting,
and one hour for doing the process of his teeth.
He was really excited to get braces,
because he believes braces are cool....
.......
I think he thinks braces are cool because he mistook them as grills like those rappers have..
But!
Oh well.
If he likes it,
then I guess its okay.
I had to wait for two hours too,
because of the waiting,
and because the supporter bracket was getting loose.
If it wasn't loose,
it'll probably would've took a hour and a half.
At least i got over with it,
the sucky part was that i couldnt eat for an hour,
and it was lunch time,
and i have a big appetite....
[sniff sniff]
What made it worse...
was that my brother bought some spicy popcorn chicken right after my appointment...
...............
I endured my hunger.
So it was okay.
When i finally want home,
i called my friends that they could come over now,
because they were at the one's house,
which near my house.
While they were on their way here by foot,
i was preparing the tuna salad sandwich i had promised I'll make for them when they come over.
It took a while,
when i was done washing the lettuce,
they have arrived.
They were noisy as usual....
and they were noisy when my daddy was sleeping..
....
ahaha.
We are a baka like that.
While they were settling and cosplaying as two akaitos and a miku,
i have finally finished making them.
I made one for me,
da wind,
thaitea,
yawnnhi,
and one for my brother.
But da wind and yawnnhi only ate a half of one,
so i ate two sandwiches,
and some of my popcorn chicken.
More phood for me~
YATTA! \(-owo)/
I really am a pig... ("-owo)a..
[BTW, i secretly added relish to your sandwiches~ (owo)v]
After that,
i played this cool game on yawnnhi's laptop.
It was like DDR,
BUT!
You have to use a mouse,
in this case it was the laptop cursor which was harder....
But i got used to it,
still not enough to be able to play hard...
[sniff...]
But the most torture thing was that yawnnhi made me play a song that showed a picture in the background of two girls,
KISSING,
like,
MOUTH TO MOUTH IN FRONT OF MY FACE.
I was disturbed in sooo many levels...
So i really wanted to finish that game fast...
Thaitea said i have to get used to it for two reasons,
i think two...
One:
I'm the photogragher of LYMYC,
so i have to deal with anything,
even yuri stuff....
and Two:
The president of LYMYC,
yawnnhi...,
is a big yuri fan....
.............
oi vey....
But i played a kobato song right after that,
so it cured me,
a little...
at least it cured some of the scarness..
Then we did a mini random photoshoot in my backyard.
It was kind of stormy,
and my dad and my brother we were crazy....
but yea....
oh well...
I wasn't able to take the pictures like the way i wanted too....
I guess it really wasn't my day...
But it was still fun.
Yawnnhi was finally taller then Thaitea from her new 3.5 inch shoes.
Which was new to me...
Then we just took a break,
ate,
and talked.
We were talking about random things,
and we we're looking at pics from Thaitea's laptop.
I kind of forgot what we were talking about...
but i remember one thing for sure.
Thaitea was playing with my Mokona plushie,
she but its ears in a shape of a mouse's ears.
And the first thing that came up to my mind when they said mouse was my guy friend....
[facepalm...]
I have no idea why he's a mouse...
There was a reason...
but i forgot....
....................................
I also remembered when they said my chin looks squarey,
so i makes me look more of a boy.
Now that i look at it more....
it does look squarey...
maybe its because of the genetics...
or because of my idiotic accident of how when i tried to skip and fail...
so i landed right on my chin,
was bleeding to death,
and went to the hospital to get some stitches...
.............
yea..
i think thats my most horrible fail.....
.......
And when they left,
i felt unsatisfied...
Maybe because they left....
But...
When they did say that my chin makes me more boy like...
i did felt kind of sad...
Well its kind of cool cuz i can cross dress and fool people~!
But then again i meet always look like 'Kevin',
the so called mini version of my older brother,
and supposingly what i was suppose to be when i was born from my brother's point of view...
And...
idk...
but..
i think im still kind of depressed....
Even though im completely over the whole break up incident..
im...
depressed..
why?





It's My Choice, So Let Me Decide

Well,

i manged to make some progress with my life decisions questions,
but i still didn't finish it.
[sigh]
Well one's for sure,
and sorry...
But imma stay at GGHS.
No transfering for me,
no sirie bob.
Because i learned that i need to try something first,
before deciding for sure that i want too or not.
I guessed the only reason why i wanted to transfer because i wanted to be like those people who just transfered to another school and be new and all!
BUT!
yea.
I am already experiencing this experience...
Plus,
reuniting with my old friends again is more fun and it breaks a boring or bad day.
As for my other life decisions,
still nada...
But my brother confessed something to me today.
He said my style was annoying him,
very much.
He said i should cut my hair short because i dont comb my hair,
and to wear a belt because i never wear a belt and because i kind of sag my pants.
Well!
I don't want to have short hair...
cuz i like tying up my hair now after doing it today.
The feeling is nice when you run with your hair tied up,
no wonder girls do tat......
And i dont comb my hair daily because its going to be messy anyway...
and my hair isnt that bad in the morning.
so that's okay.
Well sure i comb my hair like once in a while...?
As for the saggy pants,
im too lazy to wear a belt....
and i wear long shirts that will cover it anyway.
But he's getting really annoyed by my style.
Well i say its my choice,
as long as i like for what i am now,
then it's all good.
But he is a little bit frustrated it...
And when i said about its my choice quote,
he says i have an attitude.....
...........
oka...?
i dont know if i do,
so i cant say...
but i know for sure...
im not like those girly guys with tat annoying attitude...
EX: 'Like, OMG, you are sooooooooooooooooooooooo annoyin!"
..........
yea im positive im not like that........

Dream

I had a very weird dream last night,
and it involved with the guy who i have unsolved feelings for.
I dont remember all the minor details,
but i do remember one thing.
In the past,
we were always together in something,
same classes,
same groups,
etc.
But in this dream,
when we were finally not in the same team,
he was happy.
"YAY! We are not together anymore, Brenda!"
But i,
just blanked out...
I...
wasn't happy with it.
Me in my dream and me personally was not satisfied with that quote.
I...
have no idea why i had a dream with him again....
cuz my first dream of him was that we were bf and gf....
i was shocked...
couldnt go to sleep anymore...
i have no idea why but..
in my first dream i actually felt happy,
and this latest dream i felt actually sad...
in both ways.......
This is why i dont consider myself 'smart'.
I think people are smart because they can make the right choices in life,
not because of their education,
but the way they deal with life.
How they can realize a an unknown feeling right away.
Knowing how to survive,
and actually have common sense.....
That is my ideal person who i want to be.

The Memories

PE gave me more meaningful memories again today.
Football Frisbee just gave me lots of smiles from remembering the good times of 7th grade.
My team was mostly my mexican classmates,
and my best guy friend,
the friend that i think im falling for...
We didn't win a lot,
we were one of those teams who suck.
ahaha.
But,
we didnt care,
we just wanted to make a goal and actually try.
It was fun.
Well ill tell you what happened during that time like i mentioned yesterday.
On day,
my best guy friend and I were wondering who was taller,
me or him.
So i asked my teammates to determine who is,
so both my guy friend and me got closer together and waited in silence.
But then one said:
"You two look like a good couple"
That's when my brain cracked.
My friend and I were denying tat 'fact' all day.
Even my friend da wind agrees with that 'fact'.
But everytime i think about how mad my friend and i were,
i smiled.
I dont know why,
but i just smiled by myself when i was walking to class.
Maybe because i was laughin at my childish.
But yea.
He's officially taller then me now..
curse him...
But i just noticed a weird fact.
I dont remember any of my guy friends bday,
besides his buttdae...
And im always smiling whenever i think of the times we have talked.
Whether it was on aim,
person,
past,
or now,
I would always smile.
Always.....
Wonder why......
..........
Well....
before i leave and end todays post to do my other hw,
my friend Tina drew a pic of my oc,
Mitsusora Hikaren,
including hers and Kathys and Yawnnhis all in one drawing.
We were all wearing formal like clothes.
Hikaren was wearing a long purple dress,
mask,
and was holding a stuff animal...
which was a cat......
oi vey...
Well,
at least her drawing was holy,
not as holy as CLAMP....
but it made my day.

'Recycle"...?

Well i pretty much have no progress with personal questions...
And my friend said i was dense from yesturdays post...
......
????
Well moving on.
Ur....
I had a geometry quiz about special triangles,
i didnt study just i was tried from yesturday's thinking,
but it was pretty easy.
So no worries there for me.
For PE...
it was pretty boring....
I really wanted to be in track!!
But sigh..
i got cut,
and plus my parents wont let me join track...
imma be slower every year....
noooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!
..............................
But in PE,
i was playing football frisbee.[?]
Of course i tried...
but...
my people didnt really tried...
so i was kind of solo..
which was boring....
but it reminded me of 7th grade memories.
Not only because it was fun to play back then,
i had many memories that had scarred me,
and i still remember exactly how the scene was...
but in not gonna say it.
(=w=)v
In art...
i was doing my prints..
but i fail...
its either i put too much paint or i need to put more paint on...
need to edit my template...
AGAIN!
pa sha...
In english,
i survived the timed essay.
It was my worst essay...
I can't really say till i see my grade on it,
but i just have a feeling it is....
Especially when it comes to writing about poetry analysis....
.......
I would rather make poems then analyzing them...
well i do like too..
but not write a freakin 2-3 page essay about it......
Then at lunch,
i went to the argocafe to get some of the good phood.
It was crowded....
And my friend didnt had the patience to say with me till the end....
but it was worth the getting pushed and squished and all,
cuz i got a chicken bacon wrap!
SHA CHA!
i also got len..
wait.
i mean a banana...
man vocaloid really has changed my perspective of colors and items these days...
ty thaitea, da wind, and yen hi....?
.......
nah.
I also went to the AP meeting at lunch,
but i missed all the info...
but i was able to sign up for AP Psychology!!!
I know it sounds hard...
BUT!
i wanna increase my common sense!!!!
wait..
does psychology even increase my common sense..?
.....??????
too lazy to google it...
I really wanted world history this year....
tat way i could get if outta my way....
darn me for turning in my app slips late for gghs....
but oh yea.
gotta deal what life gives you.
In biology,
it was just notetaking about mutation.
And viet...
well.
we were learning about the body parts.
like: head, nose, ear, hair, etc.
but as usual i didnt understand their jokes...
For example,
we were talking about skinny jeans [idk how...]
and this one guy name Thomas,
who was expelled from LQ and came to my school,
said that skinny jeans is bad for guys cuz they need room and need it to breathe.
Everybody was laughin...
except me and my classmate.
My teacher looked at us saying:
"Okay lets stop, there are innocent people in this class like Chirstine and Brenda".
And people started to laugh again.
I feel left out...
cuz im 'innocent'...
how did i even became 'innocent' in the first place?
Is tat good?
...
And lastly,
my friend has added a new nickname for me...
I didnt hear wat it was exactly [hearing impaired blogger here...]
So i thought she said 'Recycle'...
Yawnnhi said it was japanese for bunny and cat.
...
I really don't understand why im a buat,
canny,
bunny cat hybrid,
Bunny and a cat person...
Yawnnhi said im a bunny becuz im this one person from heart no kuni no alice and since he's a bunny,
im a bunny as well.
As for the cat,
im still not sure....
I admit i am....
but how and why...?
great........
i have questions to do....
I will totally have an F in this assignment,
cuz this assignment is the hardest of them all:
figuring out riddles life has left me.
Well life isn't really that bad now.
We have bad times because life is telling us that its not right.
Like the break up.
I thought it was because life hated me,
but really,
life is helping us.
We werent really meant for each other anyway.
Speaking of love...
do i really like my friend?!?!?
("=x=)?!

Confused Much...?

Today was pretty much another confusing day for me once more...
But before i get to that,
I made a new blog!
[like a couple days ago...]
yay....?
My other two blogs were about my emo self,
Yes i HAD an emo self...
but i blocked them so u guys cant read it..
HA?
I tired to describe my day in a poetic way~....
but i cant cuz i fail like tat......
And i dont like to rush with my poems.
But anyhoo,
back to the subject!
I had many things going on in my head,
so i didnt really pay attention to any of my classes todah.
Even though I have a timed essay,
and 2 quizzes tomorrow....
............................
I was also tired,
but i was mostly thinking about the most cliche topic in the world:
LOVE.
[To all those people who are surprised by this... well..... now u know im not tat serious about school...]
I had experience a relationship before,
but im not going too deep into that.
Imma make this long story short becuz its pretty cliche...:
Got a stalker bf who i have never met before in my life,
got dumped by him,
got emo,
got better with the help of my friends,
[pretty much the meaning of my 'the seed' poem],
whoo hoo.
Does that answer your question of how i got emo?
Well if it did,
good.
If it didnt...
well screw...
I was just thinking of whats the point of saying those 'cheesy',
'pointless' lines of:
'we will be together forever',
if people keep changing their 'da one'....
And i'm not even sure if i wanna be in another relationship...
Becuz i dont wanna be treated the same way again.
Plus,
who would want to fall in love with a boring,
tomboyish,
non social,
average girl like me?
My ex did,
but in time lost interest in me.
We are friends now,
[hence the spelling in 'friENDs',
the end of loving each other in a romantic way...
actually nvm,
i suck in explaining this...]
but we dont talk a lot anymore becuz he doesnt go on aim a lot becuz he has a life.
But yea.
And like my poem 'snow',
i think im starting to like someone else now...
The person i like is my guy friend......
but im not sure if this is really love.....
wait...
Does thinking about someone 24/7 even when you were in a relationship count as love...?
....................................................
who knows...
maybe ill listen to fallin for you and fall in love right now....
but again,
i dont wanna,
or im trying not to be in a relationship again.
After i saw real couples' actions,
yea,
i cant do tat....
Actually,
you know wat...
I just want to be loved...
period.
Lastly,
its March.
the month where i can send transfer slips to other schools....
Meaning i can go to Bolsa...
or LQ....
But i dont know where..
cuz im getting used to GGHS,
and im an indecisive person.
Well i have many questions unanswered todah.....