Summer Week 1

Well, its been a while since i last post a post here.

Have been busy with finals and was trying to stop being on the computer...
But i guess it worked a bit...
I dont go on as much anymore.
Im trying to actually have a life and not be like those lazy bums.
I guess I'm posting this because this is like my 'diary' that my friends can see what im doing.
Ahaha.
So far my dreams of him seem to stop reappearing now.
Though I'm glad,
I am a bit sad.
There is nothing to be said,
but this might be bad...
It could be the end of all this,
but i dont want these events to be dismiss.
Then what is the point of all this to exist,
if all of these dreams will be miss.
I still dont know what my heart seeks,
but it sure has lots of critiques.
It has seen lots of techniques,
but not like him who still squeaks.
His feelings for his last love is now unknown,
believing it has postpone.
Even though his love is well known,
nobody knows who's this unknown.
But his actions are strange on aim,
it wasnt lame,
it wasnt a shame,
it was an overcome.
He would always add hearts,
not the one that departs,
or those complicated arts,
its just simple '<3'>
[Imma stop this poemie thing...
because it sounds weird now.... (=w=)..]
I just got home from a buffet,
and i didnt eat much because i was trying to eat less...
Plus im starting to hate buffets now,
because each buffet has pretty much the same phood...
And i got a very weird accurate stalking fortune:
"Now is the time to go ahead and pursue that love interest!"
("=w=)...........
"Go brenda go!! its ur destiny to be with khoifish!!!!"
("=//=).... \(^__^ )/
("=//=)=O(#>3<)/
"not in the freakin buffet!!!'
[end of scene]
(=w=)...
Wells...
Moving on...
Im getting excited for Ax this year!
Its going to be my first,
and its just around corner!
What also is around the corner is summer school...
As in tutor that will prep me for next year...
BUT!
The bright side is that i only have two days of tutor,
its only alg2/trig,
only a hour on mon and tues,
and i only have that class!!!
\(>w<)/
I wonder how this week come.





My disorder is....

Stolen from Yawnnhi again~ (=w=)v

ANOREXIA:
[ ] You have dry skin. [Unless i put the water too hurt which burns my skin. which is sometimes.]
[ ] You eat one meal. [I cant live w/o phood...! (=x=)!]
[ ] You're very weak. [I'm not that weak...]
[ ] You hate yourself. [Not anymore]
[ ] You starve yourself. [Why would i do that!!?]
[x] You have low self esteem. [Indeed so....]
[ ] You use laxatives. [.....[skip]]
[x] You need to be more skinny. [I'm gainning mass...]
[x] People always say you're skinny, but you think you're fat.
[ ] People think you are too skinny.
Total: 3

ATTENTION DEFICIT HYPERACTIVE DISORDER:
[x] Your mind is all over the place. [Woot!]
[x] You are hyper most of the time.
[x] You barely pay attention to anything. [when im tired yes]
[x] You can't cooperate well. [when it comes to new people i dont know..]
[ ] You talk all the time. [depends on my area and my mood...]
[ ] You need attention 24/7. [.. i wanna be in the shadows... ("=w=)]
Total: 4

BIPOLAR DISORDER:
[x] You can act wild at times then the next day you are depressed.
[ ] You are very irritable.
[x] You are antisocial. [Yes indeed...]
[x] You have very high self esteem sometimes. [Only sometimes...]
[ ] You are abusing alcohol, drugs, or sex.
[ ] You have thought of or attempted suicide.
Total: 3

BULIMIA:
[ ] You throw up all of your food. [The nutrients....!! (OxO)!!]
[ ] You throw it up even when you don't feel sick. [eww...]
[ ] You have no control over how you eat.
[ ] You use laxatives.
[x] You have overly exercised to where you almost fainted. [thats what makes me go all the way]
[x] You always say you are fat, when you aren't. [aniki.. (#=w=)]
[ ] People think you're way too skinny.
Total: 2

CONDUCT DISORDER:
[ ] You are a bully.
[ ] You threaten other people.
[ ] You often find yourself in fights.
[x] You have used a weapon that could cause injury to others. [anything can be a weapon...]

[ ] You are cruel to humans or animals. [of course not!! the animals must live!!!, including humans..]
[ ] You have raped or molested someone.
[ ] You destroyed property on purpose.
[ ] You always lie.
[ ] You stay out all night.
[ ] You have/tried to run away from home.
Total: 1

DEPRESSION:
[ ] You are always sad.
[ ] You find no hope in your future.
[ ] You find no longer excitement over the activities you use to love.
[x] You always find yourself around the house all day.
[x] You have low self esteem.
[x] Everything bad that happens is always your fault. [i believe so.. in my family fights...]
[x] You always seem to be weak or have physical features hurt. [I am weak in the inside..]
[ ] You are failing school.
[ ] You have thought of or attempted suicide.
[ ] You have/tried or attempted suicide.
Total: 4

OBSESSIVE COMPULSIVE DISORDER:
[ ] You have daily rituals.
[x] You have disturbing thoughts or thoughts you hate. [.....from the past..]
[x] You have to do a certain thing until it feels right. [Indeed]
[x] You have to keep things in a certain order. [sometimes.. but okay]
[x] You have harmed yourself. [ alot.. (=w=)...]
[x] You have to check some stuff over again. [only sometimes... but sure]
Total: 5

POST-TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER:
[x] You repeatedly have flashbacks of horrible moments or memories in your life
[x] You repeatedly have dreams of horrible moments or memories in your life.
[x] You sometimes think the event will happen again.
[x] You can be/are antisocial.
[ ] You have lost interest in the things you used to love.
[ ] You have not had a lot of sleep lately.
[x] You worry about dying at a early age or dying at all.
[ ] You can have angry outbursts.
[x] You act younger than your age. [so true]
Total: 6

SCHIZOPHRENIA:
[x] You often have hallucinations.
[x] You have strange, unusual dreams or thoughts. [a lot..]
[x] You can be confused about reality and fantasy. [some things may not happen and some will]
[x] You think people are always staring or talking about you. [in a negative way.. explains the now out of the bleu sneezes...]
[x] You have extreme anxiety or fearfulness.
[ ] You do not take care of your hygiene like you should.
[x] You are very shy.
[x] You often talk to yourself. [in my head (=w=)]
Total: 7

Well... turns out i have schizophrenia.... (=w=).. is that a good thing or a bad thing...?
Well at least it isnt depression anymore. (=w=)v

I'm....(=w=)...

Stolen from Yawnnhi~ (=w=)

Minus 1% for everything you have done.

1. Smoked.
2. Drank alcohol.
3. Cried when someone died
4. Been drunk.
5. Had sex.
6. Been to a concert.
7. Gotten/given a handjob.
8. Gotten/given a blowjob.
9. Been verbally/sexually harassed
10. Verbally/sexually harassed somebody.
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 98%

11. Felt someone up and/or been felt up.
12. Laughed so hard something came out of your nose.
13. Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfrend before.
14. Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend.
15. Been to prom.
16. Cried at school.
17. Gotten lost in a WalMart or a department store.
18. Went streaking.
19. Given or receieved a lap dance.
20. Had someone of the opposite sex in your room.
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 94%

21. Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over.
22. Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house.
23. Kissed a stranger.
24. Hugged a stranger.
25. Went scuba diving.
26. Driven a car.
27. Gotten an x-ray.
28. Hit by a car.
29. Had a party.
30. Done serious drugs.
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 94%

31. Played strip poker/darts.
32. Got paid to strip for someone.
33. Run away from home.
34. Broken a bone.
35. Eaten sushi.
36. Bought porn.
37. Watched porn.
38. Made porn.
39. Had a crush on someone of the same sex.
40. Been in love.
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 92%

41. Made Out.
42. Laughed so hard you cried..
43. Cried yourself to sleep.
44. Laughed yourself to sleep
45. Stabbed yourself.
46. Shot a gun
47. Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day.
48. Been online for 9 consecutive hours.
49. Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours.
50. Watched an animal die..
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 86%

51. Watched a person die.
52. Kissed and/or messed around somewhere with at least 1 person.
53. Pranked somebody.
54. Put somebody in the hospital.
55. Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out.
56. Kissed somebody of the same sex.
57. Dressed punk.
58. Dressed goth
59. Dressed preppy.
60. Been to a motocross race.
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 85%

61. Avoided somebody..
62. Been stalked..
63. Stalked someone..
64. Met a celebrity.
65. Played an instrument..
66. Ridden a horse..
67. Cut yourself.
68. Bungee jumped..
69. Ding dong ditched somebody..
70. Been to a wild party
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 78%

71. Got caught stealing something.
72. Kicked/punched a guy in the balls..
73. Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend.
74. Gone out with your friend's crush..
75. Got arrested.
76. Been pregnant.
77. Babysat..
78. Been to another country..
79. Started your house on fire.
80. Had an encounter with a ghost.
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 77%

81. Donated your hair to cancer patients.
82. Been asked out by someone that you never thought you'd be asked out by
83. Cried over a member of the opposite sex.
84. Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for over 3 months.
85. Sat on your butt all day..
86. Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself.
87. Had a job.
88. Gotten cut from a sports team.
89. Been called a whore.
90. Danced like a whore
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 72%

91. Been mistaken for a teacher.
92. Been in a car accident.
93. Been told you have beautiful eyes.
94. Been told you have beautiful hair.
95. Raped somebody.
96. Danced in the rain.
97. Been rejected.
98. Walked out of a restaurant without paying.
99. Punched someone/slapped someone in the face.
100. Been raped.
Total percentage: 66% Well.. [coughcough]



Say wha...? [Ouran Host club]

Stolen from Yawnnhi~ (=w=)v


Tamaki [Prince Type]:
[ ] You are French
[ ] You're a very romantic person.

[ ] You flirt a lot with girls/boys.

[x] Easily fooled by things that wouldn't fool most. [People are so mean.. (TwT)...]

[x] You're overly eccentric in everything you do.
[ ] You care about your family deeply even if they don't return the feelings.

[ ] Your birthday is April 8th
[x] You're slow when it comes to your own feelings.

Total: 3

Kyoya [Cool Type]:
[x] You wear glasses. [For reading~]

[x] You are known for being "evil". [(+w+)]
[x] Your favorite foods are anything spicy. [It has to be good/tasty spicy~]
[x] You excel in everything you do. [For the sake of getting a good grade....]
[ ] You're a very calculating person.
[ ] Your birthday is November 22.
[x] You hate waking up in the morning. [So troublesome..]
[ ] You never like to do anything unless it has a benefit.
Total: 5

Hunny [Loli Shota Type]:
[ ] You're the shortest out of your friends.
[x] You love cakes and sweets.
[x] You have a stuffed animal that has special meaning to you.
[ ] You are/have taken a martial arts class
[x] You are close to your cousins. [only some~ (=w=)]
[ ] You look a lot younger than you are. [The other way around... (=w=)a...]

[ ] You're born on February 29th
[ ] Your favorite subject is math.
Total: 3

Mori [Wild Type]:
[ ] You're the tallest out of your friends.

[ ] You only talk when you need to.
[x] You're protective of people you care for.
[x] You favorite food is Japanese food [sushi!~]
[ ] When bad things happen you tend to blame yourself a lot.
[ ] Your birthday is May 5th
[x] You're not much of a leader but more of a follower
[x] Not many people know what you're thinking

Total: 4

Hikaru [Devil Type]:
[x] You and your sibling have a strong bond.

[ ] You're a very cynical person.
[x] You like to mess with your siblings a lot.
[ ] You're the oldest sibling.
[ ] Your birthday is June 9th
[x] You like Italian food
[ ] You get jealous easily
[ ] You don't make friends easily [I say so-so.. (=w=)]
Total: 3

Kaoru [Devil Type]:
[x] You like to play games.
[ ] Favorite subject, English.
[ ] You enjoy fashion/cosplay.
[x] You're nicer than your siblings
[ ] Your birthday is June 9th
[x] You're very forgiving.
[x] You'd rather give someone something and go without to make that person happy.
[x] You like playing tricks on people [so fun~ (=w=)v]
Total: 5

Haruhi [Natural Type]:
[x] You don't care about trivial things like appearance. [It's just an identity. No big deal.]
[x] You're tight with money.
[x] You get along with guys well. [idk why...]
[x] You're blunt about everything. [indeed i am...]
[x] You're an excellent cook. [People say that i am...]
[x] You have a hard time understanding love
[ ] Your birthday is February 4th
[x] People feel
like they can open up and talk to you easily [Because i dont 'boyshop'...]
Total: 7

Results: Haruhi [Whoas! Didnt see that one coming... (=w=)...]

What my name really means..?

++What does your name mean?++
A:
Is easy to fall in love with
B: Is amazing
C: Is really sweet
D: Is popular with all types of people
E: Will kick your butt
F: Loves people
G: Loves to laugh and smile
H: Is a FREAK
I: Loves to kiss
J: Is really hot
K: Is KRAZY
L: Loves to laugh
M: Makes everything fun
N: Is very cute
O: Is the Best gf/bf
P: Is very mental
Q: Is always asking questions
R: Has one of the best personalities ever
S: Is Fine
T: Has beautiful eyes
U: Has a Smile to die for
V: Is not judgmental
W: Has a very broad mind
X: Never lets people tell you what to do
Y: Can be funny and dumb at the same time
Z: Has a hard time getting out of love


Now, i will use substitution ~

B: Is amazing [Um...]
R: Has one of the best personalities ever [Err...]
E: Will kick your butt [Only if u anger me, which is kind of rarely~ (=w=)v ]
N: Is very cute [I dont consider myself cute... (=x=)...]
D: Is popular with all types of people [Pbfft. Hilarious...]
A: Is easy to fall in love with [........?]

T: Has beautiful eyes [I do?]
R: Has one of the best personalities ever [.. do i...?]
A: Is easy to fall in love with [ha?]
N: Is very cute [again? (=x=)?]

I am 87% happy.

Stolen from Yawnnhi and Dawind~

[ ] You have a boyfriend/girlfriend.
[x] You have your own room.
[x] You own a cell phone.
[x] You have an ipod/mp3 player.
[x] Your parents are still married.
[x] You have more than 2 best friends.
[ ] There is a swimming pool in your backyard. [ I wish.. (TwT)...]

T 0 T A L: 5


[x] You dress how you want to
[x] You hang out with friends more than once a week.
[ ] There is a computer/laptop in your room. [I have a computer in my living room though! ("=w=)a...]
[ ] You have never been beaten up.
[x] You never cry more than twice a month. [Yes.. that's how emotional I am... (=w=)..]
[x] You are allowed to listen to the music you want to.
[x] Your room is big enough for you.
[x] People don't use you for something you have. [I think so.. (=w=)..]
[x] You have been to a concert. [like a school concert? (owo)?]

T 0 T A L: 7


[x] You have over 50 friends on facebook/myspace [Blew me away. (=w=)]
[x] Your parents let you have a facebook.
[ ] You get allowance. [I get money only on holidays. (=w=)]
[x] You collect something normal. [CLAMP!!! \(OwO)/]
[x] You look forward to going to school.
[x] You don't wish you were someone else. [I like the way I am right now. (=w=)v]
[ ] You play a sport. [I wish...]
[ ] You do something after school.

T 0 T A L: 5

[ ] You own a car.
[x] You usually don't fight with your parents. [Only sometimes.. not usually. (=w=)]
[x] You are happy with your appearance. [Because i dont care about my appearance. I believe appearances are just to distinguish one from another by looks. (=w=)]
[x] You aren't self-conscious at all. [Indeed... Scared if someone else saw my fail.. (=w=")..]
[x] You have never got a failing grade in your life.
[x] You have friends.

T 0 T A L: 5


[x] You know what is going on in the world. [Not all the time though. (=w=)]
[x] You care about so many people.
[x] You are happy with your life.
[x] You know more than one language.
[ ] You own a pet. [I want one...]
[x] You know the words to 5 songs.
[x] You don't have any enemies.
[x] You are a generally nice person.


T 0 T A L: 7

Okay!~ Now let's see what i got!

5+7+5+5+7 [Why only Seiren and Hikaru... (=w=)...]
=29

29(3)=87% >> I am 87% Happy.

Wow. Didn't see that one coming... (=w=)